Christ is enough for me.
I was praying about what to write about this week, and those words popped into my mind – the melody from the popular song played in my mind and I automatically started singing. But as I got to the phrase “Christ is enough for me” I stopped – is He REALLY enough for me? I sing that song every time it comes on the radio and every time its played in church, but I don’t know if I’ve ever stopped to really consider what I’m singing and if it is true in my life.
I owe my life to Jesus Christ – my salvation could have come by no other means, and in that, He is enough for me! My salvation is the single most precious thing in my life. But if I stop to think, I would have to honestly say that no, Christ has not always been enough for me.
I have been a Christian since I was 9 years old – I prayed to ask Jesus into my heart while I was baking chocolate chip cookies in the kitchen with my mom, and since that day, He has been a major part of my life. But I think that’s the problem – I have kept him as a part of my life, not as my life.
My thoughts were a little jumbled as I was thinking through this and trying to figure out what it meant to me. I looked myself in the mirror and asked, “Is Christ truly enough for you? If everything were taken from you – your health and independence, your home, your family – would you still be complete as yourself?” I have to be honest and say I don’t know if I can answer that the way that I know I should. I know that Jesus is the center of my life, but I also deeply care about the things He has blessed me with and they have become so integral to who I am that I am not sure I have an identity outside of them. My identity and my confidence now rest solely in who I am in relation to other people, and what I do to be meaningful or productive. That is so off track and I think it has just hit me – my confidence first and foremost has GOT to be in who I am in relation to Christ and what He did for me, not what I do on earth or who I am to other people. If my focus is on Christ, my identity is first as His redeemed child, and my meaning is found in serving Him, then YES He is enough for me!
I know I have a lot of work to do – my focus has been on me. My role as a wife, mother, sister, daughter and friend…my identity made up of what I do and also how I fail. My confidence shakily built on my scattered successes and also riddled with gaping holes of my many failures. When I focus on all these things that make up me, I am anxious, confused, disheartened and overwhelmed. But if I switch my focus to Jesus Christ – HIS role as Lord, HIS identity as the one who saved me, and HIS confidence as the perfect Son of God, everything falls into place and I am at peace.
So yes, Christ is enough for me. It’s just my mindset that needs some serious adjusting. I need to reevaluate who I am in Christ and let that change me!