For this week’s post, I want to start with some visualization exercises – to start, please envision a hippopotamus. If you need help, here’s what one looks like:
Now please close your eyes and imagine that hippo running through quicksand, clad in spandex.
That is exactly what I feel like when I run! And yet, I am doing just that, running. I have decided to do my very first 5k at my ripe old age of too old!
I said over the winter last year that I wanted to shoot for Chip and Joanna Gaines’ Silo District’s race weekend this spring to run the 5k, and I actually just got back from Waco!…just a week late and I didn’t race at all while I was there…but I did have a cupcake 😊
But, my husband held me to my goal, and asked me a few weeks ago when I was running my race? I am ashamed to admit that I had gotten complacent and was really just getting through my workouts rather than really pushing myself or shooting for any type of goal. A lot can be said for simply moving, and I have definitely had those seasons in my life, but this season is one where I wanted to push myself – I’m almost 2 years postpartum, not nursing anymore, and no one else is needing anything else from my body at the moment. This is the time to really push myself and try to reach those goals that once seemed farfetched. There’s something amazing about setting a big goal, putting in the work every day and then achieving it!
I know that a 5k doesn’t seem like a big deal, but to me it is. If you’ve been reading my posts you’ll know that I recently found some of my journals from the past few years and have been perusing them – well, flash back about 6 years ago, and I was basically only able to walk short distances, as anything more left me in such pain that my legs would give out and I had to lay down for the rest of the day. I went through that pain for almost 12 years before it was diagnosed and then I had my back surgery – the event that actually started this blog all those years ago! I wrote a letter to myself after my back surgery – still in extreme pain afterwards – and told myself to make it worth it. To never forget where I had been, and never to take pain-free movement for granted again. To push myself and live abundantly in the healing that God had made possible.
Well, I wasn’t doing that, so cue my training for a 5k. I’ve scheduled one for the end of June, and let me be clear: I’ve never run a race before, I don’t love running and I find myself getting a huge mental block while running and feel like I’m hitting a wall and “can’t” do it. I don’t love any of it, and tell myself repeatedly “I’m just not a runner,” but the truth is that I love my God for giving me my life back, I love my body for what it has been through over the years, and I love that I am able to do it, so I am going to push myself, do some good old “mind over matter” and run that 5k with a smile on my face! I can’t guarantee it will be pretty – pull up that hippo image in your mind again – and I can’t guarantee it will be fast, but I guarantee I will train the best that I can, and do the best that I can during the race, giving thanks to God that I can do it without pain, and that I am able to push myself. I will be thinking of all of those painful moments that I wished I could run, or even move, and I will be praying for all of those that live with pain on the daily and can’t move the way they wish.
I’m tired of telling myself what I can’t do, and tired of being ok with not trying or working towards something that is not easy. I have been healed, I have been strengthened, I can do this! What are you doing to challenge yourself and showcase what God has done in your life?
Let all that I am praise the Lord; may I never forget the good things he does for me. He forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases. – Psalm 103:2-3
So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. – 1 Corinthians 10:31
“I will give you back your health and heal your wounds,” says the Lord. – Jeremiah 30:17